ragret

(not my diary)

Sunday lunch/movie with my batch mates was an exercise in introspection, ironic since it should have been one of extroversion but i was in a poetic mood and also rather tired after executing Christy's birthday surprise with Emily.

During lunch, I sat with AgnesAaronMingkaiBethNathasha and had a rather good conversation - about parenting, trips (which devolved into a discussion about prostitution - MRSWARRENSPROFESSION was ringing in my ears "Oh, the injustice of it! the injustice! the injustice!") and our past selves and how we've changed. I partially partook in conversation, and partially scribbled down a fantastic Wordsworth poem i discovered in Mum's 'A galaxy of poems new and old' book (look at the reverse personification!!!)

The Daffodils

I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced; but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:
A poet could not but be gay,
In such a jocund company:
I gazed--and gazed--but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:

For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils. 

After that Agnes and Aaron left, and I sort of did as well, though not physically. I think i feel rather detached/disengaged from the batch because they grew closer last year through Youth comm which I abruptly left, and through outings which I did not go for. And I suppose as they moved forward I was left behind (sort of an irony since in group movement I am usually too far ahead - the perks (?) of being a fast walker) Which is why one of my resolutions is to get to know them better.

After the movie I took the train home with Deborah Wee, another church community sojourner with perhaps more severe symptoms. It was really nice talking to her because I felt like I could share more of my regrets about church than usual - and she resonated. And she says she'll be coming to church more regularly hooray!

At home we played taboo.

Novelty.