Thursday, June 26, 2014

mixed


I was talking to a friend about university and scholarships and how worried I am that I won't be able to fly away from hereeeee and the first line of his reply went
 
"Sounds like its gettin serious for u. Thats some big decisions and opportunities and i hope u get to choose the best for u and receive a scholarship. Half breeds are very popular and wanted on a international scale these days
 
 

Wednesday, June 25, 2014


Shana and Annelise moved away

I hadn't talked to them for a year before I left

I remember in one of my last conversations with Shana she asked me if I was old enough yet to have babies

She also asked me to adopt her cats

I replied in the negative to both

The trampoline is gone but the rope swing is still there

Though now when you go you pay the price in blood as mosquitoes feed off you, and your only relief is swinging and pretending everything is ordinary

we live in a beautiful world

 
In Costa Rica
 
A volcano exploded
 
Flower petals
 
I love our world






Monday, June 23, 2014



"Its a war"

My dad on mosquitos

According to Tim more people have died from mosquitoes than from war

i think its sad how we are shocked that humans are not the main reason for death



This is going to be my car in the future
I shall tackle driving with acrylic paint and creative energy!
In other words my dad's car stalled on the road today and he is right now waiting for a tow truck, taking selfies and sending them back to us while telling us how this is a lesson on patience and joy through hardship
He also gives thanks that he is not holding up too much traffic HAHAHA i wish the car would stall more often my dads responses to emergencies are h i la r i o u s

Sunday, June 22, 2014

one more thing that happened


I cut my hair


Who is my God




So yesterday I had this huge meltdown in the bathtub over who my God was because I suddenly felt like I didn't know I knew who I thought he was but I felt like I was learning that he was different which frightened me and saddened me

It was like if you came home after school one day and opened the front door and someone had painted the walls black and pushed all the furniture around into the wrong places and put your shoes in the kitchen and the apples in the shoe rack

I fell asleep still so troubled

But then I woke up early this morning, and lay on the sofa beside the white grilled window, and watched the rain dripppppping off the leaves of the big tree that has been outside my house for as long as I remember

And I know and I was certain and I AM certain

That the God I've loved and yearned for since I was small

Is still my God now

He's the God of sunshine and hugs, thunder storms and huge wrenching sobs that always feel better after everything is out. He's a God that cares for me whenever I am broken and who is so complex that there's an ocean of things to learn and learn about him.

He is not stagnant or predictable.
He is not rigid or archaic.
He is not over demanding or belittling.

He loves my happiness and my joy, and he certainly certainly isn't there to make my life a misery of fear and limits and boredom

I love my God, I love him so much and I hope you find him too. I hope you realise he isn't just what you learn in church, he's all around you.

I still have questions, like

Do we need the Bible to know God? Could someone in the middle of a rainforest with no access to the globalised literate world still find God in his splendificent surroundings and the quiet or his heart?

I believe he could

Because God is everywhere and I am so glad he is

4days



I spent 4 days over at Emily's house this holiday
and I am proud to announce
we are still best friends

On the first night I cooked soba and miso soup and peas (a very very green meal) and it was ok but bland but healthy YAY and we had yogurt for dessert

On the second day we were supposed to have pancakes for breakfast but I woke up late and she did too so we didn't

On the third day we went to watch Edge of Tomorrow which was pretty good I wasn't bored at all, and then we had impromptu H&M shopping after that

That was my favourite night because we were late (wow big surprise) to the theatre so we had to run like Mad girls to the station and out the train and through the shopping mall and everything was a blur except me and Emily and excitement

Afterwards we walked home barefoot (to be nelipots) and Emily stayed barefoot the whole way even though it hurt to walk on the concrete and we sang 'Stars' and imagined aliens attacking us and scared ourselves silly and then laughed like crazy after that

And we had tagliatelle for dinner (AND EMILY COOKED A BEAN) and delicious pancakes for dessert.

And then James came home from a week of army and field camp and told me about lying in a shell scrape under a canvas and watching the rain (which reminds me of 'tintinnabulation': the musical sound that wells from the bells bells bells)

And the day after that Emily and I had a (failed) expedition to ghim moh to find prata

And I can't help but think I am the luckiest girl in the world to have a friend like her

 
(guess what this is us walking home after the movie)
 
#werk

hopeyjoobyjerry



On Wednesday this week I went for dinner with the Changs

and their adorable 4 year old triplets hope jubilee and jeremiah

but jeremiah asked me to call him JJ or J

and then hope said 'sometimes they call me H'

and when I asked them if I should call jubilee J as well they gave me looks of annoyance because OBVIOUSLY ANYONE would know that she's called Jooby

Hope's favourite food is broccoli

Jeremiah's favourite food is chicken. And beef (that was an afterthought) (this was all told to me while he had a piece of fried pork poking out between the gap that had been his 2 front teeth)

Jeremiah sang amazing grace to me while he slowly slid down his chair onto the floor, and hopey sang who am I while wiping her feet with the wet tissue given by the zichar place, and then later sang open the eyes of my heart lord with me

and when it was time to go home, hope and jubilee shouted "GOODBYE OPEN THE EYES OF MY HEART LORD!!!"

my heart was overflowing with happiness the entire evening