Shelled

This week was tough
I admit

I left Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday's papers (Economics, History and Literature) with so much doubt over not only my ability but also whether my teachers would be left hurt over the inordinate and (now proven) unjustified amount of trust and hope they'd placed on me.

Then there was the surprise of math which i thought i would fail completely and utterly
but in fact i felt like i managed the paper alright, and i could actually pass!

But then again as i've experienced my hopes and expectations are so often false and betraying

So i am left hoping and waiting (why do i have this endless supply of hope i hope and i hope when will i stop why should i stop)